College of Arts and Sciences
Master of Arts in English (MA)
Memoir, Non-fiction, Perfectionism, Performance, Expectation, Reality
Creative Writing | English Language and Literature | Nonfiction
Karram, Esther Elizabeth, "Breaking the Fourth Wall" (2019). Masters Theses. 574.
This creative, non-fiction thesis is written in memoir form and analyzes how a person perceives reality, how that perception is broken, and how a person copes with the limitations of a new reality. In examining my life, I came to realize that many of my performative tendencies stemmed from a desire to be loved and the belief that love was contingent upon perfection. What follows is my struggle to try to maintain that perfection, the failure to do so, and the slow acceptance of being an imperfect person in an imperfect world.